Cut a long story short, I got bullied a lot for several years. It took away every shred of confidence I had and I received treatment (therapy, no drugs) for clinical depression and anxiety. I felt a lot better until recently, when I was randomly spat on in public by some kids from another school. I reported the incident but, like the bullies from my own school, the school did absolutely nothing and refused to let me follow up or even identify the boys that did that to me. My anxiety returned full pelt immediately after I was spat on; the same day I had my first panic attack in over a year and cried for over three hours non-stop. Now, I have to face knowing that they will never be caught while having to see the people that bullied me before in school as they weren't suspended. I just hate them so much that I'm starting to hate myself, and I don't feel like myself. The bullying I received at first was of a sexual nature (don't want to go into it any more than that) so I feel disgusting and ugly as well, and I don't know who to ask to help me. I just want to be normal again.