Hello, I'm a 15 year old female and I think I may have depression. I was looking through websites about teen depression and symptoms and I seem to have all including thoughts of suicide. I don't know why I suddenly have had these negative thoughts cross my mind, as my life honestly isn't that bad as I have a great boyfriend and an amazing best friend but sometimes I lose all hope due to reasons that'll take probably eons to try to explain myself.
Thoughts of suicide happen often now. The only thing stopping me from actually killing myself is my boyfriend or my best friend but sometimes I feel too selfish and they're almost not important enough to me. I wish I didn't have these thoughts and I wish I knew why I had them.
I've lost interest in school completely and I'm having a negative attitude towards my mother whom I love dearly but sometimes things come out of my mouth that I really can't help but say and I feel like her heart breaks so much every time I do.
I'm afraid to talk to her if I may or may not have depression because she will blame me sitting around on the internet doing nothing all day but I just have no interest for social activities or even bothering to go outside for a walk. I've lost about 20 pounds randomly in 3 months for whatever reason and I hardly have enough patience for people around me.
I was thinking about talking to my school counselour about this, but my school counselour makes me feel uncomfortable and I'm afraid she'll brush it off and tell me that I'm just a teenager going through mood swings when I feel as though it's not just PMS or just typical teen angst. I don't know. Can someone please give me advice?
I feel kind of silly asking strangers on the internet but I feel more comfortable talking about this with strangers than people close to me...
Thoughts of suicide happen often now. The only thing stopping me from actually killing myself is my boyfriend or my best friend but sometimes I feel too selfish and they're almost not important enough to me. I wish I didn't have these thoughts and I wish I knew why I had them.
I've lost interest in school completely and I'm having a negative attitude towards my mother whom I love dearly but sometimes things come out of my mouth that I really can't help but say and I feel like her heart breaks so much every time I do.
I'm afraid to talk to her if I may or may not have depression because she will blame me sitting around on the internet doing nothing all day but I just have no interest for social activities or even bothering to go outside for a walk. I've lost about 20 pounds randomly in 3 months for whatever reason and I hardly have enough patience for people around me.
I was thinking about talking to my school counselour about this, but my school counselour makes me feel uncomfortable and I'm afraid she'll brush it off and tell me that I'm just a teenager going through mood swings when I feel as though it's not just PMS or just typical teen angst. I don't know. Can someone please give me advice?
I feel kind of silly asking strangers on the internet but I feel more comfortable talking about this with strangers than people close to me...