Shot version,I'm 16(female) live with grandparents since (age 2) cause I have Cerebral palsy and was neglected by parents as infant.In fourth grade I was pulled out of public school due to them not meeting my needs. Two years later had surgery to prevent a permanent wheelchair. But slight complication lead to neurological tic(sp?) that will never go away took a year to stop.(But now returning.) The a year later my great-granddad suffered a heart problem and died a year later. Now I suffer from depression and sometimes I think bipolar issues and occasional suicidal thoughts. and Now I realize my whole family are control freaks! My great grandmother controls everybody!(have to tell her where we go/ My aunts like the local gossip. My uncle...let's not go their. and to top it off my parents had two"normal kids after me and love them to death, me I could have bright yellow and pink hair, neon green and orange clothes run up and down the street singing off key and they wouldn't notice(then again it's my parents fault I'm disabled, they were/both into drugs and alcohol. Top it all off I think I'm love with my brother's best friend.I'm family treats me like a baby cause of my condition but they don''t mean too:| I can't even leave the yard. Now i'm not happy with beinghome-schooledd,~sigh~ Look leaving and getting help isn't the answer. Basically I need advice not professional, but regular like friend advice(only got one of those, she lives out of state.) Also I am very christian and wanna be an Archaeologist but my family is racist and prejudice and tease me when i talk about it and i was once told "If a boy ain't white don't bring him home." Look is there anyway toresolvee some of this without professional help I've had to much of that after being monitored my wholLifeeI don't like attention which is why I won't tell said boy I like hicausese my whole family will know(also live in a VERY small town.) Am I just crazy?