Before I start talking about what actually happened in the dream, I should probably clarify that I found my mom dead in her bedroom 5 months ago and prior to that, I attempted hanging myself many times. ANYWAYS...
I dreamed that I kept waking up every morning and finding my mom lying in a body bag on her favorite spot on the couch in our living room. It wouldn't go away and I didn't know how to get rid of it. After a few days I finally sat down and unzipped the body bag and saw my mom, who looked just like she did when I found her dead in real life. I started screaming and crying and saying that I hated myself and that I didn't deserve to live anymore, and I frantically went around my house trying to find a rope or something to hang myself with. I eventually found something and ran as fast as I could into the woods to hang myself from a tree.
What could that dream have meant? My mom and I had unresolved issues and we fought the night before she passed away. I feel very responsible and guilty about her death. This, in addition to not doing as well as i want to be doing in school, is really making me start to not like myself. Could the dream have some really complicated meaning or could it just be because ive been really hating myself lately?
I dreamed that I kept waking up every morning and finding my mom lying in a body bag on her favorite spot on the couch in our living room. It wouldn't go away and I didn't know how to get rid of it. After a few days I finally sat down and unzipped the body bag and saw my mom, who looked just like she did when I found her dead in real life. I started screaming and crying and saying that I hated myself and that I didn't deserve to live anymore, and I frantically went around my house trying to find a rope or something to hang myself with. I eventually found something and ran as fast as I could into the woods to hang myself from a tree.
What could that dream have meant? My mom and I had unresolved issues and we fought the night before she passed away. I feel very responsible and guilty about her death. This, in addition to not doing as well as i want to be doing in school, is really making me start to not like myself. Could the dream have some really complicated meaning or could it just be because ive been really hating myself lately?