I'm going through a bit of depression and slowly coming out of it. I started researching many things that could trigger my depression and why it is (I feel as though the more I know the more I can help myself). I realize that because of my childhood I have an anxious-preoccupied attachment to certain people and also that I have PTSD due to years of physical abuse at the hands of my mother (this hasn't stopped and I'm now 20). Anyway another thing I looked into, but can find scarce information on, is my ability to recount only my terrifying dreams.
I wouldn't call them nightmares because I'm not afraid of them and I don't wake up in the middle of the night in a sweat or screaming, but when I tell them to people they cringe in fear. I know I have regular dreams, but I can seem only to remember the terrifying ones in enough detail to tell them to someone as if they were a movie. and what is even stranger is that I can remember them detail for detail and very vividly, no matter how long ago I had them, without having to write them down. I remember dreams of this sort that I had 6 years ago. But they are the only ones I remember. I really want to know why and if it has anything to do with my depression or PTSD, or even if it worsens those two things.
They are also recurring. They never continue, but they do recur.
Anyone got any clue or any suggestions on where I could look to find information?
Also when I was younger (ages 1-3) I had things called night terrors. Where I would scream and cry in terror, as though I was being murdered and no one would be able to wake me. They had to wait for me to stop. I was also stiff as a board.
My mom told me I had these and my aunt remembers an instance where I had one while she babysat me. Apparently, this is not that common among small children.
I wouldn't call them nightmares because I'm not afraid of them and I don't wake up in the middle of the night in a sweat or screaming, but when I tell them to people they cringe in fear. I know I have regular dreams, but I can seem only to remember the terrifying ones in enough detail to tell them to someone as if they were a movie. and what is even stranger is that I can remember them detail for detail and very vividly, no matter how long ago I had them, without having to write them down. I remember dreams of this sort that I had 6 years ago. But they are the only ones I remember. I really want to know why and if it has anything to do with my depression or PTSD, or even if it worsens those two things.
They are also recurring. They never continue, but they do recur.
Anyone got any clue or any suggestions on where I could look to find information?
Also when I was younger (ages 1-3) I had things called night terrors. Where I would scream and cry in terror, as though I was being murdered and no one would be able to wake me. They had to wait for me to stop. I was also stiff as a board.
My mom told me I had these and my aunt remembers an instance where I had one while she babysat me. Apparently, this is not that common among small children.