Why do I have an interest in Charles Manson so much?

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I'm 28 this has been going on since I was 21. Ive read almost everything on him, seen all the movies etc. This does not seem like an interest from influence ive had that before and it Only lasted about a year. When I was 23 I went as far to get his face tattooed on my arm.My family and friends do not understand why I like this man so much. Sometimes I don't either. Ive actually studied the cases and everything. I guess its because he overwhelms me to know that a man of his Caliber could influence all the people to do what they did. And to also know that it has never been proven in court he killed anyone but still convicted of 7 counts of murder and then given the death penalty for it,tho they did abolish that. Sometimes I think he may be more the just a man,something spirtial maybe. Anytime i see him on tv i get butterfly's in my stomach. I don't know what it is im not a bad guy been married ,relationships,good supportive,family,dog,cat,good job,etc basically just a normal guy i guess aside from this.Any insight on this would be a huge help.Thank you.