Since I broke up with my girl friend years ago I have been mildly depressed. Its gotten better, but it was really bad for a few months. Lately I've noticed I get worked up for an entire night if something goes wrong at the office, and if I do something really embarrassing I am depressed for weeks. I've begun talking to myself a lot lately, like criticizing myself out loud. I can't focus at work, I don't want to talk with my friends, and I have a desire to move to another part of the country. I think of suicide as well... I'm afraid to go see a doctor about this....