I mean, life just gets so overwhelming and I just want to get away from all of it. I'm unemployed and unmotivated. I just don't care anymore. If I didn't have to walk my dogs in the morning I'd be happy to stay in pajamas all day. I've had a successful life until last year. My wife is working, and she says it's okay. She knows I'm depressed. But I have no health insurance to see someone for therapy and antidepressants. Other than walking the dogs I leave the house maybe once or twice a month. Usually under protest. I could steal a six pack of beer, get arrested, we couldn't afford the bail, I could just park myself in jail and spin out. It actually sounds attractive.