Okay, I'm so cookoo!
Please bear with me.
Let me start by saying that all my life, I've never though of babies or a baby coming to me. I've dated plenty of men and I'm dating an awesome guy right now who I really like. But not one of them have I sensed would ever father my kid. Even my current guy who is so great on paper and I like so much, I don't see a child with him (and there's a huge age difference and he doesn't want kids....I just don't sense it).
But for the last year, I've been so oddly attracted to another man (that I'm not dating, but I'm secretly pining for). He's not my type physically at all and the first couple of times, I though I didn't like him or felt indiffernt. But then one odd day we talked, an boom! Just the way he looked at me completeyl unsettled me and wasn't and still can't get him out of my head.
Anyway, a very strong baby presence is around the aforementioned guy. I feel nutty because I've never wanted kids. But it feels very strong with this guy.
Now here comes this dream:
Its a bit in the future and its not all pleasant. In fact its very unromantic but it feels very real with this guy. I'm walking to the back of a building and I see my guy working at a desk alone, looking a little distant and not happy about something. I walk in front of the building, and then this Indian guy in very bright clothes comes to me and says I have a son he says I need to meet. A 14-year-old son. I ask the Indian if the son is fathered by the guy who is working alone (my crush) and he says yes. Then the Indian says that I must come to a bridge where I will meet my son and that he needs help and wants to see me. That my son has been alone, almost as if he's been travelling by himself. I of course want say yes and the Indian leads me to a bridge where I await my son on the other side, but then, ahhhh, I wake up!!!! I don't get to see/meet him. But his coming presence felt very real.
Could this mean something or am I just going throug some pre-mid life crisis (I"m 32). Its not that I'm really craving a baby at all and still can't imagine having one with anyone else, but a baby with this particular guy feels very strong. What's wrong with me?!!!!
Please bear with me.Let me start by saying that all my life, I've never though of babies or a baby coming to me. I've dated plenty of men and I'm dating an awesome guy right now who I really like. But not one of them have I sensed would ever father my kid. Even my current guy who is so great on paper and I like so much, I don't see a child with him (and there's a huge age difference and he doesn't want kids....I just don't sense it).
But for the last year, I've been so oddly attracted to another man (that I'm not dating, but I'm secretly pining for). He's not my type physically at all and the first couple of times, I though I didn't like him or felt indiffernt. But then one odd day we talked, an boom! Just the way he looked at me completeyl unsettled me and wasn't and still can't get him out of my head.
Anyway, a very strong baby presence is around the aforementioned guy. I feel nutty because I've never wanted kids. But it feels very strong with this guy.
Now here comes this dream:
Its a bit in the future and its not all pleasant. In fact its very unromantic but it feels very real with this guy. I'm walking to the back of a building and I see my guy working at a desk alone, looking a little distant and not happy about something. I walk in front of the building, and then this Indian guy in very bright clothes comes to me and says I have a son he says I need to meet. A 14-year-old son. I ask the Indian if the son is fathered by the guy who is working alone (my crush) and he says yes. Then the Indian says that I must come to a bridge where I will meet my son and that he needs help and wants to see me. That my son has been alone, almost as if he's been travelling by himself. I of course want say yes and the Indian leads me to a bridge where I await my son on the other side, but then, ahhhh, I wake up!!!! I don't get to see/meet him. But his coming presence felt very real.
Could this mean something or am I just going throug some pre-mid life crisis (I"m 32). Its not that I'm really craving a baby at all and still can't imagine having one with anyone else, but a baby with this particular guy feels very strong. What's wrong with me?!!!!