I have recently fallen out with all of my family and just don't want them in my life anymore - there not awful people but I just don't like them. Over the last 7 or so years I have had to come to terms with coming out as a lesbian, dealing with the suicides of my brother in law and sister in law, deal with my father in law going through chemotherapy and many other issues and problems that go with the territory. I recently blew up at my brother who I really dislike, I have never liked him but due to the fact he has a 18 month old son wanted to be part of his and his families life (probably a selfish act by me as I will never have my own children but do have a 14 year old step son who the family have never really bothered with that much!) The thing is my brother keeps getting praised by everyone as to how supportive he has been and how much he loves me? This amazes me he has done some pretty shit things over the years and has had most member of the family in tears at some point by his nastiness, but he just seems to be allowed to do what he wants and everyone things he's great. So now I have stood up and said actually I don't like you and don't want to be part of your lives my family can't understand why I would do that! When my brother in law died all of my family except me and my family (usual practice) were holidaying together, when I contacted they to tell them what had happened they said there there and finished the rest of their holiday off another 5 days - all of them Mam, Dad, Brother, Sister, Sister in law - I'm very confused and angry at so many things and am seeking professional advice - Am I selfish to be annoyed at these people and is it right that I feel full of guilt that I don't really like them and that I think the family just stick their heads in the sand?