Am i suffering from depression of some sort?

[rubees24]

I lost a friend in july last year to suicide and for a fair few months now ive been really down, including rapid mood swings, ill have a couple of good days a week but the rest will be shit. very conscious of what people say to me. i hate being at home and at school, and im finding the people around me are constantly frustrating me so now i tend to push them away, not that theyre noticing that theres anything wrong with me and if they do don't act on it. i hate being where i live and find myself always wanting to run away to somewhere else. When i lost my friend i felt very guilty because the people who teased him, i just sat and didn't stop them from doing it. i still think about him every day and still cry, is this normal. Am i sufferiong from a kind of depression, what can i do? Am i just trying to get attntion or something?!?
im 15 and i think im depressed am i?

 

[Marishka]

You're agrivated & greiving... not necessarily depressed.

Grief takes many forms, & you'll keep feeling this way until you forgive yourself and move on. The grief will never go away, but it will fade to a managable level.

And to ask if you're trying to get attention... makes me thing, has someone suggested that to you? It's been suggested about me too, but I don't want attention, I want to be 'normal' but most of the time just to be left alone.