I am kind of freaking out because I feel like I am starting to develop these god-like powers, and it's really freaking me out. I've been having really bizarre conversations with people, like talking backwards to them as I've realized that I understand time lines forward and backwards (backwards time-lines are really scary, full of satanic back-masked messages in songs and the notion that your birth is actually a death where you get thrown back into your mother's womb by evil doctors.) I had this conversation with my friend last night and now I am really freaking out because at first I thought my friend was joking when he reported back to me that I successfully sent him into a state of hell after I told him he wasn't in heaven (he was bragging that he was in heaven, which set me off):
The weird thing is, I'm not even really interested in religion. And I've also been receiving really strange information about the system of where we are in general. Apparently, the solar system is kind of a macro-fractal of the atomic element fluorine. The reason why our star is made entirely of hydrogen is not simply because it's the first element on the periodic table in a logical series, but because it's highly combustible with fluorine. As our solar system is a nine planet system, it fits into the nine electron schema of fluorine. We're actually inside of the gravity field of a huge subatomic particle of fluorine, at least according to the thoughts that are sort of spontaneously popping into my head.
Another time, while I was at my friend's house, I asked him if I could "download" mescaline into his brain. He kind of hesitated, but I was like, come on, I just want them to see this. I flicked my wrist towards him and he immediately started to freak out and ran over to dunk his head into my friend's pool, startling all of the guests. One of the girls there started complaining of feeling a really strange incomprehensible energy in the room, which made me start laughing uncontrollably.
I don't know if it's all a big joke at my expense, but I am pretty convinced that something is happening. So far I've been able to traverse heaven and hell and I've almost entirely stopped using my own brain to come with answers to things since I already seem to know in advance.
I don't think I am crazy. I have a relaxed sense of self-control, I always think before I act, and I tend to plan ahead for anything out of the ordinary. I also have pretty well established cognitive abilities, I've been doing pretty well with artistic, musical, and intellectual pursuits. I am just kind of put off by this. I don't want to turn into some sort of deified celebrity so I am probably going to try to act as nuts as possible so nobody suspects anything.
I don't know what the topic of conversation is here, I just feel the need to report this to the faceless anonymous internet.
The weird thing is, I'm not even really interested in religion. And I've also been receiving really strange information about the system of where we are in general. Apparently, the solar system is kind of a macro-fractal of the atomic element fluorine. The reason why our star is made entirely of hydrogen is not simply because it's the first element on the periodic table in a logical series, but because it's highly combustible with fluorine. As our solar system is a nine planet system, it fits into the nine electron schema of fluorine. We're actually inside of the gravity field of a huge subatomic particle of fluorine, at least according to the thoughts that are sort of spontaneously popping into my head.
Another time, while I was at my friend's house, I asked him if I could "download" mescaline into his brain. He kind of hesitated, but I was like, come on, I just want them to see this. I flicked my wrist towards him and he immediately started to freak out and ran over to dunk his head into my friend's pool, startling all of the guests. One of the girls there started complaining of feeling a really strange incomprehensible energy in the room, which made me start laughing uncontrollably.
I don't know if it's all a big joke at my expense, but I am pretty convinced that something is happening. So far I've been able to traverse heaven and hell and I've almost entirely stopped using my own brain to come with answers to things since I already seem to know in advance.
I don't think I am crazy. I have a relaxed sense of self-control, I always think before I act, and I tend to plan ahead for anything out of the ordinary. I also have pretty well established cognitive abilities, I've been doing pretty well with artistic, musical, and intellectual pursuits. I am just kind of put off by this. I don't want to turn into some sort of deified celebrity so I am probably going to try to act as nuts as possible so nobody suspects anything.
I don't know what the topic of conversation is here, I just feel the need to report this to the faceless anonymous internet.
