So I'm 17. A weed smoker. I used to smoke (Weed) all day every day because I had a job. But now that I was fired I can't afford it anymore. (One morning I had a really bad head ache and I mean bad, I can usually handle pain really well, because I have the mentality that it's just temporary and not going to kill me, but this head ache was a whole different beast. So I decided to stay home regardless of what the boss thought, because I really couldn't give a rat's ass about what he would do. Unluckily for me, the boss decided that I was faking a sickie and fired me.) So I decided to try out some things before I got another job, and started smoking weed again.
The first thing I wanted to try was to see if I could smoke constantly (Tobacco) and then determine whether it was easy, or relatively hard to quit like my parents and all my "smoker" mates keep telling me (I stopped smoking weed like the press of a button, I'm not mentally addicted like most people). So now I have been smoking tobacco bongs all day every day for the last month (Because who the hell is stupid enough to smoke a cigarette, fuck that).
It has been about a week since I have stopped and all I feel is awesomeness. I feel constantly angry most of the time and do have a dire urge to continue smoking but I know that it's the tobacco's effects so I'm never violent or aggressive towards anyone and I enjoy the challenging feeling. I just can't help but smile all the time because I know how to handle myself. It is hard to explain but every now and then I experience this wicked feeling in my eye's. The feeling is reminiscent of looking up into the sky (not the sun) but being unable to keep your eyes open due to how bright it is, crossed between that awesome feeling you get from sneezing. I love it. I do get head aches more frequently but I can ignore those easily. I do feel a lot more unfit, sweat more and breath heavily after heavy physical activities - like my daily bike ride which ranges from 1 km to 30 km depending on who want's to hang out, motorbike riding and running etc. But I tend to mildly enjoy the feeling after the heavy breathing goes away.
I tend to push my self as hard as I can at everything, and constantly research everything I do, and everything I am interested in (which includes a large portion of Astronomy and Marijuana research). My daily routines are heavily physical, while at night I tend to just do research (I quit school almost two years ago, and decided that research will help me sustain a relatively high mental capacity and keep me above those junkie-like weed smokers).
Can someone explain what is going here? Is it normal? I usually research everything myself, but today I decided to share my experiences and ask you guys. Would a lesser physically/mentally active "smoker" mind have caved in to the temptation to smoke again?
This is what my parent's had to say for themselves in response to this question from me:
"Why don't you quit smoking? It's easy! I could do it piss!"
"Yeh, yeh You know everything and I know fuck all, hey?" and "You think you know everything, but you know fuck all!".
Why do they have this attitude? If I can do it (as a teenager, which is apparently harder) why can't they?
PS. I am sorry if this is difficult (or weird) to read guys/girls, I didn't get to proof read. I just wanted to get this out there as quick as I could before I go out today. Thanks for your time.
The first thing I wanted to try was to see if I could smoke constantly (Tobacco) and then determine whether it was easy, or relatively hard to quit like my parents and all my "smoker" mates keep telling me (I stopped smoking weed like the press of a button, I'm not mentally addicted like most people). So now I have been smoking tobacco bongs all day every day for the last month (Because who the hell is stupid enough to smoke a cigarette, fuck that).
It has been about a week since I have stopped and all I feel is awesomeness. I feel constantly angry most of the time and do have a dire urge to continue smoking but I know that it's the tobacco's effects so I'm never violent or aggressive towards anyone and I enjoy the challenging feeling. I just can't help but smile all the time because I know how to handle myself. It is hard to explain but every now and then I experience this wicked feeling in my eye's. The feeling is reminiscent of looking up into the sky (not the sun) but being unable to keep your eyes open due to how bright it is, crossed between that awesome feeling you get from sneezing. I love it. I do get head aches more frequently but I can ignore those easily. I do feel a lot more unfit, sweat more and breath heavily after heavy physical activities - like my daily bike ride which ranges from 1 km to 30 km depending on who want's to hang out, motorbike riding and running etc. But I tend to mildly enjoy the feeling after the heavy breathing goes away.
I tend to push my self as hard as I can at everything, and constantly research everything I do, and everything I am interested in (which includes a large portion of Astronomy and Marijuana research). My daily routines are heavily physical, while at night I tend to just do research (I quit school almost two years ago, and decided that research will help me sustain a relatively high mental capacity and keep me above those junkie-like weed smokers).
Can someone explain what is going here? Is it normal? I usually research everything myself, but today I decided to share my experiences and ask you guys. Would a lesser physically/mentally active "smoker" mind have caved in to the temptation to smoke again?
This is what my parent's had to say for themselves in response to this question from me:
"Why don't you quit smoking? It's easy! I could do it piss!"
"Yeh, yeh You know everything and I know fuck all, hey?" and "You think you know everything, but you know fuck all!".
Why do they have this attitude? If I can do it (as a teenager, which is apparently harder) why can't they?
PS. I am sorry if this is difficult (or weird) to read guys/girls, I didn't get to proof read. I just wanted to get this out there as quick as I could before I go out today. Thanks for your time.