my dad died last june, it was a shock i had gone away for my birthday and flown back the day of my birthday to see him, he died the day before -he was divorced from my mum but never moved on. He was everythin to me and we were very close, even bofore he was sick i always said if he ever died id die of a broken heart and he agreed and when he got sick he knew id rather me have it than him. i just cant move on everyone else just seems to have moved on from it, but im stuck -i loved him so much its borderline obsessive when he was ill i took time off work to help care for him syringing his drugs rubbing cream on, and now hes gone im pleased hes not in pain yes but also miss him so much as i have a partner iv been focussing my attention on him and our life and not really facing up to the fact my daddys gone, i think about him constantly every minute of everyday, have dreams where im trying to get to him and never make it, when i wake up at night i wait for him to come and get me. i know i need to face up to it and move on but i loved him that much i think if it sinks in and i do accept hes gone i will just break my heart and make things things worse. i cant really talk to family or friends as they have there own things going on. should i just keep goin by fooling myself that hes still here. i just cant accept it.