I was raised in an extremely conservative Christian household, so I was taught to believe that homosexuality was disgusting and wrong. As I've gotten older, however, I've realized how ignorant that viewpoint is and, reflecting on my own life, come to the conclusion that I might actually be a lesbian or bisexual myself.
The facts:
-I'm 15.
-I despise dresses/skirts/heels and I don't wear makeup, but I do care about my appearance...
-I like men's clothes--baggy jeans, loose buttondown shirts over t-shirts, ties, etc.--but I never buy clothes like that (My mom thinks I should be more "girly" as it is, she definitely wouldn't approve).
-I'm disgusted by the thought of having sex with a boy, but I've had shortlived "crushes" on them before based mainly on facial features/appealing personalities.
-I never realized it before (Since I've never considered the possibility of being anything but straight), but I've also had crushes on girls that had more to do with a desire for an actual relationship than the ones I've had on guys--I always settled for close friendship, but still wanted to be near them/find out more about them/make them happy more than is probably normal for "just friends."
-I've kissed guys a few times, but I didn't initiate the kisses/particularly enjoy them.
-I've never kissed a girl, so I don't know how enjoyable that would be compared to kissing a guy...
-I've had "those types" of dreams about girls recently, but never boys.
-I can see myself having a real relationship and future with a woman--living together, getting married, having children, etc.--and I've never been able to picture that well with a man even though that's what society's norm is.
The facts:
-I'm 15.
-I despise dresses/skirts/heels and I don't wear makeup, but I do care about my appearance...
-I like men's clothes--baggy jeans, loose buttondown shirts over t-shirts, ties, etc.--but I never buy clothes like that (My mom thinks I should be more "girly" as it is, she definitely wouldn't approve).
-I'm disgusted by the thought of having sex with a boy, but I've had shortlived "crushes" on them before based mainly on facial features/appealing personalities.
-I never realized it before (Since I've never considered the possibility of being anything but straight), but I've also had crushes on girls that had more to do with a desire for an actual relationship than the ones I've had on guys--I always settled for close friendship, but still wanted to be near them/find out more about them/make them happy more than is probably normal for "just friends."
-I've kissed guys a few times, but I didn't initiate the kisses/particularly enjoy them.
-I've never kissed a girl, so I don't know how enjoyable that would be compared to kissing a guy...
-I've had "those types" of dreams about girls recently, but never boys.
-I can see myself having a real relationship and future with a woman--living together, getting married, having children, etc.--and I've never been able to picture that well with a man even though that's what society's norm is.