People laugh at me everyday because I'm quiet. I AM NOT PARANOID. I am right 95% of the time. I am made fun of, ridiculed, and laughed at on a daily basis. I was verbally bullied since the 6th grade. I am now in the 12th grade. If I had to estimate how many people that have talked about me, made fun of me, ridiculed, and laughed at me it would be about 70 people and counting. It starts oof with one kid picking on me, who passes it onto others, and then I become a target/victim to a growing number of students who are catching on to the bullying trend like it's an epidemic. Even a few of my former teachers have joined in the harassment and laughed at me in the past. My parents are no better. They make fun of me,embarass me, and laugh at me most of the time. They would yell at me "Stop moping around and crying! Get over yourself!" I've tried talking to them about how they mistreat me, but they don't see any harm in whatt they're doing. Occasionally, I have suicidal thoughts and last week I've started to cut my thighs with a razor blade. I cut myself because I have t go through all of this all by myself. I have no comfort, empathy, or compassion from anyone in my life. I cut myself because I'm sick and tired of crying almost everyday. I cut myself because I've been severely hated, bullied, harassed, tormented, and abused by everyone I have encountered. I cut myself because I hate myself with a deep passion. Why should I give a damn about myself? I am a worthless, less than human loser who is beneath everyone. If you don't think I am, then why does everybody including my parents treat me like shit? I'm fucking sick and tired of people laughing at me for being myself (an inrovert). For once, I would like to make fun and laugh at somebody who is like me. Is there anyone, right now, being constantly laughed at everyday like me? Or used to be? I feel so alone and need someone to talk to.