Ever since I was younger I have had an emotional attachment to women where i imagine pretty women as my mum or sister etc or caring for me.
One day this year i started worrying whether this meant i was a lesbian so i started testing myself by making myself have sexual thoughts about women. I HAVE never had sexual thoughts about wiomen in my life and now almost 6 months later i still cant welcome or enjoy any sexual thoughts about women.
Before i started worrying i used to always imagine ebing in a relationship with a man, and even still masturbate sometimes to the thought of sex with men. But since ive started worrying i cant look at men the same and feel so worried thinking about them.
the only thoughts i enjoy having about women, are emotional/maternal where i imagine women whoa re pretty as my mom etc.
I play scenarios in my mind where i imagine them being my mom or caring for me.
also today i went ice skating and i was helping my friend ice skating because it was her first time and she was holding my hand, and i wasnt disgusted by that? Like i felt comforted almost.
like I still dont imagine or welcome sexual thoughts about women, i just have a strong emotional attachment where i imagine pretty women etc as my mom/ sister.
I am 18 and have anxiety and ocd,
p.s i look at other girls in public but it doesnt mean i want to be in a relatunship with them. And since i started worrying about being a lesbian i feel anxiety around guys.
One day this year i started worrying whether this meant i was a lesbian so i started testing myself by making myself have sexual thoughts about women. I HAVE never had sexual thoughts about wiomen in my life and now almost 6 months later i still cant welcome or enjoy any sexual thoughts about women.
Before i started worrying i used to always imagine ebing in a relationship with a man, and even still masturbate sometimes to the thought of sex with men. But since ive started worrying i cant look at men the same and feel so worried thinking about them.
the only thoughts i enjoy having about women, are emotional/maternal where i imagine women whoa re pretty as my mom etc.
I play scenarios in my mind where i imagine them being my mom or caring for me.
also today i went ice skating and i was helping my friend ice skating because it was her first time and she was holding my hand, and i wasnt disgusted by that? Like i felt comforted almost.
like I still dont imagine or welcome sexual thoughts about women, i just have a strong emotional attachment where i imagine pretty women etc as my mom/ sister.
I am 18 and have anxiety and ocd,
p.s i look at other girls in public but it doesnt mean i want to be in a relatunship with them. And since i started worrying about being a lesbian i feel anxiety around guys.