with males in the future? Not just in general but romantically too.
I'll try and keep this short as possible, sorry if it turns out a little long guys!
My dad abused my mum until i was around 4 and my mother and i left to live with my Aunt (which was lovely) but my mother still allowed my father to see me/ me to visit and stay over.
My father had alot of different girlfriends, sometimes a new one every few Weeks which was hard as they were all very nice to me and it was a bit hard having to get used to all these different women one after the other, even though they were really good to me.
My father always had a temper, he never slapped me but has gone to slap me before and would always snap at me or shout at me in public for petty things i.e. not packing bags at the grocery store fast enough. When he would talk down to me i would never cry in front of im, but at times when it got too much he'd ridicule me and say 'Aw is baby blubbing now' which just used to upset me more, i know it sounds pathetic but it did.
As I got older he would shout at me more, as as i started to develop he would comment on my breasts and body shape, making comments such as 'Oh, so you want to be a glamour model now do you?' which i didnt, i just developed a lot quicker than some girls.
At the age of 14 i stopped seeing him, my self esteem was at an al ltime low, and he was just getting too much i couldnt take the anger or the abuse or the general ways of my father. I am now 16, and since i have met him a couple of times but he is still the same, belittling me and making himself out to be the victim.
I love my father but dislike him strongly, i feel as though I lost my father years ago and he just feels like a stranger. H calls now and again and on the phone hes chatty and nice but i know its a farce and it just confuses me as i just think 'What do you want?' as there is nothing left really.
Do you think this will impact my relationships generally and romantically with males in the future? I'm sorry this is so long!
I meant to add he didn't see how he was and doesnt see what he did wrong and STILL deneys the way he is
I'll try and keep this short as possible, sorry if it turns out a little long guys!
My dad abused my mum until i was around 4 and my mother and i left to live with my Aunt (which was lovely) but my mother still allowed my father to see me/ me to visit and stay over.
My father had alot of different girlfriends, sometimes a new one every few Weeks which was hard as they were all very nice to me and it was a bit hard having to get used to all these different women one after the other, even though they were really good to me.
My father always had a temper, he never slapped me but has gone to slap me before and would always snap at me or shout at me in public for petty things i.e. not packing bags at the grocery store fast enough. When he would talk down to me i would never cry in front of im, but at times when it got too much he'd ridicule me and say 'Aw is baby blubbing now' which just used to upset me more, i know it sounds pathetic but it did.
As I got older he would shout at me more, as as i started to develop he would comment on my breasts and body shape, making comments such as 'Oh, so you want to be a glamour model now do you?' which i didnt, i just developed a lot quicker than some girls.
At the age of 14 i stopped seeing him, my self esteem was at an al ltime low, and he was just getting too much i couldnt take the anger or the abuse or the general ways of my father. I am now 16, and since i have met him a couple of times but he is still the same, belittling me and making himself out to be the victim.
I love my father but dislike him strongly, i feel as though I lost my father years ago and he just feels like a stranger. H calls now and again and on the phone hes chatty and nice but i know its a farce and it just confuses me as i just think 'What do you want?' as there is nothing left really.
Do you think this will impact my relationships generally and romantically with males in the future? I'm sorry this is so long!
I meant to add he didn't see how he was and doesnt see what he did wrong and STILL deneys the way he is