I am a lesbian, I know this "for sure" since I was 18, and I've felt this way since I was 8. I've had one long relationship, I've had many crushes on girls, and all my life, guys have been stored in the "friends" box and it has been no problem.
I've never for a moment considered myself bisexual. There is just not enough evidence for this claim. However... there is this guy that leaves me breathless the moment I see him. It's such electricity pushing me near. This guy and I are no acquaintances, let alone friends. He is my customary piercer I've seen a handful of times in my life, and I go there about twice a year to get something done. Whenever I see him I get this implotion in my stomach that stiffens me, even though I am outgoing and a chatter. It takes me several days to get him out of my head.
I went to see him today, one of my friends got her ears pierced and again -the shock- overwhelmed me. And it had been a while since we didn't see each other, over a year, and he's too shy to trigger some conversation as was I, so we stared at each other for the longest time like saying "i recognize you, and i'm too fragile to speak, not knowing if you'll think it's weird i haven't forgotten you"
details like these just throw me off balance. Should I just forget about "i am lesbian", and embrace a possibility randomly met? or should I sort this out and see "the scientific reasons" for me to get to this point and find my way out?
I've never for a moment considered myself bisexual. There is just not enough evidence for this claim. However... there is this guy that leaves me breathless the moment I see him. It's such electricity pushing me near. This guy and I are no acquaintances, let alone friends. He is my customary piercer I've seen a handful of times in my life, and I go there about twice a year to get something done. Whenever I see him I get this implotion in my stomach that stiffens me, even though I am outgoing and a chatter. It takes me several days to get him out of my head.
I went to see him today, one of my friends got her ears pierced and again -the shock- overwhelmed me. And it had been a while since we didn't see each other, over a year, and he's too shy to trigger some conversation as was I, so we stared at each other for the longest time like saying "i recognize you, and i'm too fragile to speak, not knowing if you'll think it's weird i haven't forgotten you"
details like these just throw me off balance. Should I just forget about "i am lesbian", and embrace a possibility randomly met? or should I sort this out and see "the scientific reasons" for me to get to this point and find my way out?