so I have a HUGE problem and I know its killing me. for about a year ive been bulimic. I used to weigh 230 pounds and got down to 155 from good diet and lots of running. well then I wtarted to weight lift which i had to eat more then I geigned 30 pounds and now im back up to 180 pounds now. I hate it I liked being 155 so much that I started throwing up and when I was so hungry and felt like I had to eat I think to myself "well, I can eat as long as I throw it up" I need serious help without goig to a doctor I want to do this by my own. also itsgot really bad that I do it every day. I want to stop so bad its just so hard for some reason.