This question is serious, so anyone interested in giving me a stupid reply, just get out. I don't need you making me feel any more like an idiot.
I'm 20 years old. I still live at home, and my parents are harassing me. Get a job, go to college, get a job OR go to college, do this, do that, you're not doing it fast enough. I've looked for a job. I've had interviews. I've actually had the chance to turn jobs DOWN. It's not like I'm not trying here. But I've gotten this for 5 years straight. I'm not lazy, but every time I get the chance to explain to them what's really going on inside, I don't, for various reasons:
1) I know that if I start going "deep", I'll start crying, and the worst part to any day is having a swollen face, puffy eyes, and a burning headache. I HATE crying, and I do it so much nowadays. My dad says "it's okay to cry". But I can only imagine they're also thinking, "For God sakes, she's 20-freakin-years-old. Grow up!" I have emotional problems that cause me to cry a lot more readily than most people. And do you think I like it?!
2) I've tried to talk sense into these people for 5 years. I've tried to explain things to them. I'm tired of it. I'd prefer to let them get their stuff out, at my expense, even though it kills me inside, than say the same words I've said before. They'll never listen. And that's more my brain telling me they'll never listen than the truth, but I can't help it. They're so stubborn.
3) If I say anything, I'll run the risk of losing it, not only through crying, but also through swearing, yelling, and stuff that will only solidify this opinion they have that I am an infant. Sometimes I feel like the only way they'll understand is if I break something, or scream, or do something totally not like me. But if I do, they'll start to question whether I'm an adult.
I don't know what to do. I could write a letter to them, but all I can think is that they'll read it and say, "Wow, she's such a baby. Can't even face us. This is ridiculous."
I could get counseling, but what good is that. My dad is a psychological counselor himself. He deals with my type all the time, and look what that's done. It's because of him, mostly, that I'm like this in the first place. And I have no money. Besides, the best counselor I know is my dad, and I've heard tales about others that are just deadbeats.
I often dream of running away, but I have no car, no money, nothing. I want to get away from this world I live in. I actually want to LIVE life. A hard life, if need be. Just not this one I have right now.
Please, I need to vent, through words, and I have nothing. No one. At least no one who would listen. What should I do? Please, I need help...
I have a fairly clear path in life. It's the one I've had since I was a kid, and I thought it was pretty stupid for a while, until now, I look back and see how far I've come in that direction. So, as of now, I'm aiming more clearly where I've been going all along. So it's not like I have NO idea what I'm doing with my life. It's just that my family isn't supportive of it. They think what I want to do is going to give me nothing. Money-wise. But it just might give me everything. Life-wise.
@ PersoN
Thank you a million times for your words. They mean a lot. It's good to know I'm not alone, and now it's my turn to give my support to you. I'm very sorry for what you're going through, but you have a good plan, so maybe I'll try it. It's frustrating, and sometimes I think parents can be just as stubborn as children sometimes.
I have to realize they feel like they can't get through to us. Maybe they can't. You say you're passive. So am I. I think that's the problem. We let things slide a little easier, so much maybe, that they think we aren't hearing a word they say. We do. That's why we're on Y!A, trying to figure things out. Because we heard those words and hated them. Again, I'm sorry, and if there's anything you need to talk about, I'm here. Just look me up.
I'm 20 years old. I still live at home, and my parents are harassing me. Get a job, go to college, get a job OR go to college, do this, do that, you're not doing it fast enough. I've looked for a job. I've had interviews. I've actually had the chance to turn jobs DOWN. It's not like I'm not trying here. But I've gotten this for 5 years straight. I'm not lazy, but every time I get the chance to explain to them what's really going on inside, I don't, for various reasons:
1) I know that if I start going "deep", I'll start crying, and the worst part to any day is having a swollen face, puffy eyes, and a burning headache. I HATE crying, and I do it so much nowadays. My dad says "it's okay to cry". But I can only imagine they're also thinking, "For God sakes, she's 20-freakin-years-old. Grow up!" I have emotional problems that cause me to cry a lot more readily than most people. And do you think I like it?!
2) I've tried to talk sense into these people for 5 years. I've tried to explain things to them. I'm tired of it. I'd prefer to let them get their stuff out, at my expense, even though it kills me inside, than say the same words I've said before. They'll never listen. And that's more my brain telling me they'll never listen than the truth, but I can't help it. They're so stubborn.
3) If I say anything, I'll run the risk of losing it, not only through crying, but also through swearing, yelling, and stuff that will only solidify this opinion they have that I am an infant. Sometimes I feel like the only way they'll understand is if I break something, or scream, or do something totally not like me. But if I do, they'll start to question whether I'm an adult.
I don't know what to do. I could write a letter to them, but all I can think is that they'll read it and say, "Wow, she's such a baby. Can't even face us. This is ridiculous."
I could get counseling, but what good is that. My dad is a psychological counselor himself. He deals with my type all the time, and look what that's done. It's because of him, mostly, that I'm like this in the first place. And I have no money. Besides, the best counselor I know is my dad, and I've heard tales about others that are just deadbeats.
I often dream of running away, but I have no car, no money, nothing. I want to get away from this world I live in. I actually want to LIVE life. A hard life, if need be. Just not this one I have right now.
Please, I need to vent, through words, and I have nothing. No one. At least no one who would listen. What should I do? Please, I need help...
I have a fairly clear path in life. It's the one I've had since I was a kid, and I thought it was pretty stupid for a while, until now, I look back and see how far I've come in that direction. So, as of now, I'm aiming more clearly where I've been going all along. So it's not like I have NO idea what I'm doing with my life. It's just that my family isn't supportive of it. They think what I want to do is going to give me nothing. Money-wise. But it just might give me everything. Life-wise.
@ PersoN
Thank you a million times for your words. They mean a lot. It's good to know I'm not alone, and now it's my turn to give my support to you. I'm very sorry for what you're going through, but you have a good plan, so maybe I'll try it. It's frustrating, and sometimes I think parents can be just as stubborn as children sometimes.
I have to realize they feel like they can't get through to us. Maybe they can't. You say you're passive. So am I. I think that's the problem. We let things slide a little easier, so much maybe, that they think we aren't hearing a word they say. We do. That's why we're on Y!A, trying to figure things out. Because we heard those words and hated them. Again, I'm sorry, and if there's anything you need to talk about, I'm here. Just look me up.