This is somewhat hard and easy to answer.
I'll start off with the hard part. Often times people i meet associate me with sociopath or serial killer.
This is there first impression, i guess. But i will say that my all time role model has always been the fictional character "lector hannibal" from the silence of the lambs movies. I told my counselor that and she told me i was crazy, but i didn't care. I try really hard to stay away from people when i'm angry, cause of the temptation to hurt them all just so i can feel some kind of peace in my life. I don't have any empathy for other people whatsoever, i don't feel anything. I'm so brainwashed on violence, that when i see someone laying in their own pool of blood, it doesn't phase me, to me it's natural. i can't explain it any other way. But my question is, is it really my fault for having no feeling of empathy for all people? it's just the way i was born, it's not like i can help it.
some of the hard parts are part of the easy parts.
Easy part. It's easy to understand why someone would want to kill random people, i feel the same way sometimes. honestly, i try not to think about it, so i keep myself busy. i have a lot of pent up rage i dont let out, so when i'm in my rage mood, i feel the need to kill everyone and everything around me. so, as i stated earlier, i get as far away as possible so i dont get the temptation to hurt anyone. it's my only way of protecting people from myself.
My therapist thought i was either bi polar or psychotic. But this was way before i was finally diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome/Cognitive Disorder.
The only way i would ever kill an animal is either for survival or if you pissed me off. i would rather eat a human being than an animal. i have no quarrels with animals, it's the human species that temps me into a killing frenzy. I don't have a filter in my mind to tell me what i'm doing is wrong, whether it be a male or female that i beat the hell out of or think about torturing on a daily basis.
Because of my childhood, i would kill anyone that hit or abused their kids. The only people i protect are kids, animals, and the elderly.
Because of the mistreatment you get all your life, it makes you believe that people are like that. It's like being a broken toy or a stray dog. the feeling of being lost and confused of your where abouts plays a role in your life, much like a movie that has no ending.
Listening to opera makes me a better killer in videogames and in paintball, it sets me free of all emotions. i dont think about anything, just the music and how i feel lifted.
i know i've gotten strange looks when people find out i listen to opera, meh.
i hope some of this helped from my perspective. i'm not a serial killer, at least i dont think so. i enjoy playing piano, painting, writing, making art, dreaming.
one more piece of advice, if you know anyone who tortures small, defenseless animals and brags about it, you should report them to the police asap before they go after bigger targets like kids to adults. well, i guess i'm done. goodluck.