For going on 3 years now I've had a weird relationship with food. Some of the time I love it and I can eat it without a problem but then I feel really guilty after I do that so I'll starve to get rid of the excess food I ate. But then after 3-4 days of not eating I crack and eat LOADS. So much so that I will often be sick because I've eaten so much.
The problem is all this crash dieting and over-eating has caused me to gain weight, not lose it. I'm now 5'8 and a half and I weigh around 155lbs. I KNOW I need to lose weight, that's why I diet but then I crack and eat loads.
I know it's not an eating disorder a) because I'm still fat and b) because I can eat some of the time without feeling guilty. How do I get out of this and eat normally again? Please don't say go and see someone because I can't for money reasons and because I can't tell anyone. I need to do this on my own. How do I do it? It's making me so unhappy.
The problem is all this crash dieting and over-eating has caused me to gain weight, not lose it. I'm now 5'8 and a half and I weigh around 155lbs. I KNOW I need to lose weight, that's why I diet but then I crack and eat loads.
I know it's not an eating disorder a) because I'm still fat and b) because I can eat some of the time without feeling guilty. How do I get out of this and eat normally again? Please don't say go and see someone because I can't for money reasons and because I can't tell anyone. I need to do this on my own. How do I do it? It's making me so unhappy.