The Word of God came to me on January second and God revealed my condition as Ezekiel 37:1-10. I suffer from demonic oppression and it is fitting to ask of myself can these bones live. God did a number of things to prove to me that He had spoken; saving my mother, getting me a job helping my ailing Grandfather, and the like. I one of the afflicted people mentioned in Isaiah 54, where it says O afflicted one, storm tossed and not comforted. My problem is that I have a very anti-God spirit that messes with me and is a stumbling block for me to quit sins. I tell God that I want to quit drinking beer and the'll tempt me. It's no conqincidence that Ezekiel 37 is written just before the antichrist is rebuked in Ezekiel 38, where gog and magog are mentioned. I don't know why God has not helped me with repentance or put His Spirit within me yet, and I'm just pining away until I am baptized. The strange thing is that I commit sins that are unrighteous, mentioned in 1 Cor 6:9-11, but God still insitits that I am elect and forgiven, but it makes me feel bad to sin against Him and have so many hang ups with repentance. Is repentance hard in Christ? For me it is cause for anxiety when I shouldn't be anxious.