Sometimes after an event or anything I've worked towards, like I dunno a day at school or working hard at something a cigarette just seems to top off it off. But other times I feel ridiculous after i've been around a group of people and I just "have to" light one up, so I don't feel so awkward just sitting there doing nothing. But i dont know.
A second ago, i just asked myself if I really liked "these things". i asked myself out loud actually - and I didn't have a straight answer. I don't like being addicted to anything, and i dont want to lose my life due to bad health way in the future. but at the same time a cig just seems to just feel right at times, and all my buddies smoke way more than me and actually a lot longer too, and they're doing fine. so I dunno, i know most people are just gonna straight up say, "just quit smoking" because its better for you and all that stuff. but is a couple every day a serious issue? of course i'm not down to a couple a day, especially on weekends, but i've fought off the cravings before and i'm sure i could get down to it. or should i just quit entirely? i just don't see what the big deal is, if every now and again i light one up. as long as its not constant. i dunno, i'm making this seem complicated and there really isn't a straightforwards question, im sort of just ranting. i don't really care about my health too much i'm not gonna lie, i mean i dont run or play sports, so it's not like i need to be in top physical shape or anything. i dont want to quit smoking, but deep down inside i think.. maybe... i should. maybe. ugh. i think the deep down inside thought is because i just feel mentally bad cuz i'm letting cigarettes control me. any thoughts are welcome, i just want to see what you guys have to say. maybe like a cool, "oh i quit smoking years ago and i feel great" story or something like a loss of someone dear to you story due too smoking or something. anything is welcome. thanks
A second ago, i just asked myself if I really liked "these things". i asked myself out loud actually - and I didn't have a straight answer. I don't like being addicted to anything, and i dont want to lose my life due to bad health way in the future. but at the same time a cig just seems to just feel right at times, and all my buddies smoke way more than me and actually a lot longer too, and they're doing fine. so I dunno, i know most people are just gonna straight up say, "just quit smoking" because its better for you and all that stuff. but is a couple every day a serious issue? of course i'm not down to a couple a day, especially on weekends, but i've fought off the cravings before and i'm sure i could get down to it. or should i just quit entirely? i just don't see what the big deal is, if every now and again i light one up. as long as its not constant. i dunno, i'm making this seem complicated and there really isn't a straightforwards question, im sort of just ranting. i don't really care about my health too much i'm not gonna lie, i mean i dont run or play sports, so it's not like i need to be in top physical shape or anything. i dont want to quit smoking, but deep down inside i think.. maybe... i should. maybe. ugh. i think the deep down inside thought is because i just feel mentally bad cuz i'm letting cigarettes control me. any thoughts are welcome, i just want to see what you guys have to say. maybe like a cool, "oh i quit smoking years ago and i feel great" story or something like a loss of someone dear to you story due too smoking or something. anything is welcome. thanks