To start off, I know I am not paranoid so don't tell me that I am, there are definitely people talking about me and these people perceive me negatively, the problem is I am not sure to what extent and if it is even possible that I do not know about the rumor/gossip (note i said gossip, cause it might not be rumors, just a lot of people talking **** about me). I have confronted a lot of my friends and asked them if they knew anything about rumors/gossip going around related to me, but they have all told me no, however I still feel like something is wrong and they are either lieing or by chance, just haven't encountered these it. I kinda think it all started off with the popular group of kids in my grade, I don't want to sound overconfident and conceited, but I know at one time or another, over half of the girls in my grade have had a crush on me (not all at the same time, over a period of like 3 years, none of which i liked back so they all gave up, and i am certain they liked me, cause i could hear them gossiping, its just the rumors/gossip im not sure about) and I think I might have just bitten off a lot more than I could chew by not choosing a girl, cause some of the girls that liked me were extremely popular in my grade and they talked about me to their guy friends and their guy friends for some reason all started talking **** about me. BTW, a lot of the girls that liked me found out that their friends liked me also which just added even more fuel to the fire.
I would be extremely grateful if anyone could give me some advice, cause honestly I feel like I can't trust any of my friends right now, and I don't know how to deal with a problem that I am not even supposed to know about, i mean i can't confront anyone about the gossip/rumors if I am not entirely sure it exists, i dont know what exactly the gossip/rumors are about, plus I have no idea whos spreading it cause its coming from a group of people. If you knew anyone whos been in a similar situation or if you yourself were in a situation like this please help me out.
I would be extremely grateful if anyone could give me some advice, cause honestly I feel like I can't trust any of my friends right now, and I don't know how to deal with a problem that I am not even supposed to know about, i mean i can't confront anyone about the gossip/rumors if I am not entirely sure it exists, i dont know what exactly the gossip/rumors are about, plus I have no idea whos spreading it cause its coming from a group of people. If you knew anyone whos been in a similar situation or if you yourself were in a situation like this please help me out.