The first time he just pounded away in missionary and then talked about his crazy ex afterwards, and sneered at me when I said I could understand depression. He tried to laugh it off then and said lets go again but I felt sick. Then next when we did doggy he did it so hard that I felt bruised afterwards for days, it hurt my stomach for some reason, and as soon as he was done he said he was tired so I should go home. I think he secretly hated me, I found out he was just using me to make his ex jealous, I didn't know at the time. I don't want to be filled up with someone else's hate when I sleep with them. I'm scared to sleep with someone else. He was so very very sweet and nice to me but it all changed. I feel ashamed I didn't see him for who he was.
He always went out the door after sleeping with me, and he left the towel he used to clean himself off screwed up on my bedside table. I felt so empty and don't want to feel so empty again, just thinking of it makes me feel like crying. But he always said sweet dreams and tucked me in before he left.
He always went out the door after sleeping with me, and he left the towel he used to clean himself off screwed up on my bedside table. I felt so empty and don't want to feel so empty again, just thinking of it makes me feel like crying. But he always said sweet dreams and tucked me in before he left.