Okay so in 5th grade I listened to eminem and other rap artists. Then 2 years later I listened to hardcore punk bands not knowing I had BPD. I'm now 18 and I can listen to eminem but it doesn't feel right. I also discovered I have aspergers syndrome about a year before I found out I have BPD and I started to hate myself more and more every day. is it possible to hate myself to the point where I hate the things I actually like? I'm so confused right now. Does anyone know what's wrong with me? Or has this happened to anyone else before? I feel like Kurt Cobain over here.