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- Sep 3, 2010
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Well to start off it would kind of sound like a rant, but here goes... I just moved away 3000miles away from my close group of friends. They were my family, along with all my friends moms and dads and step dads, we were all really close, my mom moved from Louisiana to Washington and not only the cultural changes, there is less racial diversity, and pretty much everything is different. If that wasn't bad enough, she moved in with her grandparents to take care of them on their farm. Now I'm building my mom's house and I work all day on the farm which is new because I never did any of this kind of stuff. The work doesn't bother me because I'm not lazy. I'm on some mountain in the middle of no-where and I'm home-schooled and the only social interaction I have is my mom, my super mean grandmother, my grandpa who doesn't like me anymore because I caught him watching porn(even though I never told anyone), and my uncle who is a social recluse because of his mother. I keep in contact with my friends over Facebook, but that only makes me more depressed and lonely because after I finish talking to them, I snap back to reality and realize I'm here. My source of escapism is gone, because my Xbox360 died from the red rings. I hardly have any time to meet anyone, or even leave the farm itself, and every chance of social interaction I get, I jump at it and I made myself more outgoing and sociable and more approachable and I still can't make any friends. I don't know what to do, I don't even talk anymore hardly besides, -yes-no-sure-maybe-i guess so-, I can't talk to my mom because she WANTS to be here and hearing me complain upsets her and she just throws up her hands and leaves or pretends to listen if she is in a good mood, all my other family members are hopeless. I tried connecting with my uncle but he doesn't like anyone. I really don't know what to do... My optimism about the move is all gone... I tried to make the best of it but there just isn't anything good about it at all. I miss everyone I used to know. I'm 17 years old and I don't know how long I can put up with all of this. I'm getting super depressed, and I've even been getting online to talk to friends less, and they ask me where I've been and whats wrong. And now I resorting to asking random people how can I help myself besides putting my rifle to my head. And the problem is, I've only been here a 2months, and I have to be here for another 10 until I turn 18 and move back.