I have been struggling with this for a long time. I recently came out to my mum and my best friend. Both of them were absolutely fine with it and accepted me. Now i am really regretting my decision by telling them. Now I began thinking that i might now be gay. Well i do often find myself looking at girls than boys. I just look at boy as friends and nothing more. I have never been in a relationship. I often fantasize about being with a girl, having kids. A girl I want to build my future with. When I try thinking about boys in a sexual way, i feel uncomfortable. Sometimes I think that i am forcing myself to be gay and sometimes to be straight. I think i made a mistake by coming out. When i think about kissing a girl and going future, i have no problems with that.Outdoors, I look at boys when they go past me, but that is it. Nothing future. I am really confused, It is a phase i am going through or do I need time to accept myself. I mean if I was sure about me being gay, I would have loved myself. Oh I forgot, I am 19.
I would appreciate your answers
Thank you
Mistake 4th sentence***
Now I began thinking that i might NOT be gay.
I would appreciate your answers
Thank you
Mistake 4th sentence***
Now I began thinking that i might NOT be gay.