i want to go to church , but i don't fit in?

[DestinyMystery]

I want to go to church but i feel , i do not fit in. Although everyone is welcomed in church i feel i don't fit in at all or welcomed. I was christened in the church that i go to , I even had my first communion. and since then i don't think i fit in. I go to church on and off. sometimes. so far this year i've only been to church once. and when i went they asked me to read from the bible , but i was nervous , so someone else read instead. and this made me feel really bad and nervous.
Also every time i go to church everyone always stare at me. and some others in disgust , and i was a member of the church longer than them. and they act like they've been going to the church all their life! what do i do? how can i fit in? and why do they look at me so rudely? real Christians wouldn't turn up their nose , they'd accept people.

 

[DrDeanCrosby]

I was going to ask if maybe they don't like your appearance (hair style or clothes). :be polite:
The Holy Spirit informed me that God has an answer for you so let me find that for you.

"GO OUT DAUGHTER.FIND ME.WORSHIP ME.FOLLOW ME.GO NOW".

That certainly is a call to look for a new church rather than remain in your current church where you are being abused.

I have two suggestions.First look for a Vineyard or Life church in your area.They are very casual youth-oriented non-denominational churches that bend over backwards to make everyone feel comfortable.If you can't find one of those two listed in your telephone yellow pages directory,then start visiting a different church each week until you find a welcoming church that makes you feel comfortable.