...other people? I don't know how to word this so I'll try my best. I know people get sick of these sorts of questions.
At first I thought it was because I haven't had a boyfriend in so long that I started looking at girls, but now I'm not even attracted to boys. Whenever I'm out with friends, I'm checking out the girls. Now, the fact that I might be a lesbian doesn't bother me one bit. But I'm super attracted to one of my best friends and I can't stop thinking about her. I haven't seen her for years (we fell out, but just made up again recently) and now I'm having all these feelings for her and it's made me realise that I used to be attracted to her all those years ago anyway, I just didn't realise it for what it was back then.
So anyway, me and some other friends were out in some bars and clubs the other night and we went to a lesbian club for a laugh (not to laugh at anyone, you understand, just to have a girly night away from boys and it was really fun.) But I noticed that everyone in there seemed to know each other and it got me really worried about how I'm supposed to meet other girls, because I sort of felt like I was intruding on their ground and that if I wanted to get to know anyone there then all my business would be talked about. They all seemed really judgemental and it terrified me.
So how the hell am I supposed to meet people?
At first I thought it was because I haven't had a boyfriend in so long that I started looking at girls, but now I'm not even attracted to boys. Whenever I'm out with friends, I'm checking out the girls. Now, the fact that I might be a lesbian doesn't bother me one bit. But I'm super attracted to one of my best friends and I can't stop thinking about her. I haven't seen her for years (we fell out, but just made up again recently) and now I'm having all these feelings for her and it's made me realise that I used to be attracted to her all those years ago anyway, I just didn't realise it for what it was back then.
So anyway, me and some other friends were out in some bars and clubs the other night and we went to a lesbian club for a laugh (not to laugh at anyone, you understand, just to have a girly night away from boys and it was really fun.) But I noticed that everyone in there seemed to know each other and it got me really worried about how I'm supposed to meet other girls, because I sort of felt like I was intruding on their ground and that if I wanted to get to know anyone there then all my business would be talked about. They all seemed really judgemental and it terrified me.
So how the hell am I supposed to meet people?