Is it immature to be 'scared' to be home alone at the age of seventeen and how do...

KÖEL

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...I calm myself down? The reason for that question is that my mother will be going back to Germany for a month, on the 14th. I am in school and because of that, I cannot go along with her. She claims I am old enough to be on my own anyway, and that this is going to be a good experience. However, I do not share the same opinion as her. I have bad anxiety and am very worried about everything and anything. I create bad scenarios in my head and they replay over and over. Examples are, What if something bad happens to her and I will never find out? What if she leaves and never comes back? What if we get an eviction notice out of no where and I can't get a hold of her ( I know, this won't happen but you never know ), What if the cable/internet/electricity/gas/water gets cut off? Again, I know that won't happen.. What if I don't have enough food? What if I get hurt? ect.ect. I've tried to express these feelings to her, but her being german, she is very hardheaded and simply refuses to listen to my worries. I don't have a lot of family members where I am living now. Just a brother, his wife and an uncle with his wife. My brother is a doctor and is busy all the time, so he is hard to get a hold of in case of emergencies. My uncle teaches at the University but hardly answers his phone so I barely see him. Before my mother leaves, she is giving me a lot of money, for rent, food, bills..etc but I am still very nervous. How do I calm down my nerves and relax so I can have a good time being alone?
 
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