answer: you would find it difficult to study traditional kabbalah. The New Age stuff Madonna is into is a mesh of New Age spirituality with some Hebrew and Jewish symbols thrown in along with a good dose of ceremonial magic.
Traditional kabbalah is taught one-on-one - teacher to student. Traditionally students were 35 or older, married and stable and requires more than a passing knowledge of Torah.
It is only true to a very limited degree, true and full study of Jewish Cabala is reserved only for Jews with special training (otherwise it is though the person will go mad)What Madonna and other non Jewish and non trained celebrities do is not true Jewish Cabala.