God, I'm aware of how f'ed up this question sounds but here's the deal.
Sometimes my ex and I would be play fighting/wrestling it would ultimately lead to sex every time.. which usually is a good thing but sometimes at a certain point he'd kind of pin me down and start having sex with me when I DIDN'T want it for what ever reason. And I'd clearly say "No, stop.. I'm serious" in a firm voice.. But for some reason I could never keep a straight face for very long even if I didn't want it. Maybe it was the undignified positions I would end up in or the fact that I just couldn't win which was always a mixture of amusement and frustration to me.. anyway, obviously because I was madly in love with him, and had sex with him many times before it definitely wasn't a situation in which I would end up crying/screaming.. but there were honestly times when I REALLY did not feel comfortable having sex. When he was done he would actually say sorry sometimes, but usually with a kind of sheepish smile.
I don't hold any resentment towards him and definitely don't want to turn it into anything, but I have to say there was something that just felt so weird about the whole situation whenever it happened. Not traumatic but something definitely felt a little..off.
So, I just wanted to know if that would be technically considered rape out of curiosity.
Sometimes my ex and I would be play fighting/wrestling it would ultimately lead to sex every time.. which usually is a good thing but sometimes at a certain point he'd kind of pin me down and start having sex with me when I DIDN'T want it for what ever reason. And I'd clearly say "No, stop.. I'm serious" in a firm voice.. But for some reason I could never keep a straight face for very long even if I didn't want it. Maybe it was the undignified positions I would end up in or the fact that I just couldn't win which was always a mixture of amusement and frustration to me.. anyway, obviously because I was madly in love with him, and had sex with him many times before it definitely wasn't a situation in which I would end up crying/screaming.. but there were honestly times when I REALLY did not feel comfortable having sex. When he was done he would actually say sorry sometimes, but usually with a kind of sheepish smile.
I don't hold any resentment towards him and definitely don't want to turn it into anything, but I have to say there was something that just felt so weird about the whole situation whenever it happened. Not traumatic but something definitely felt a little..off.
So, I just wanted to know if that would be technically considered rape out of curiosity.