Is my desire dangerous? I can't stop thinking about sex?

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Ok so I am 18 yr old guy. I don't know when I had sex, but I remember that when I was little I went to an abandoned house and would suck off a guy. That is the earliest I could remember. But the problem is that I had sex with my step cousins at the ages when I was in 1st grade, 2nd grade, 3rd grade, and 4-5th grade. I stopped the next time it was going to happen which was in 8th grade when I started having crushes on guys at school ever since I was disgusted at myself because all I wanted was a romantic relationship. I could not care about sex at all. It has haunted me ever since and I hated myself for it, I wished that it didn't happen. Now that I havent found a romantic relation and graduated, I feel so disappointed because I suffered some heart breaks. But what is happening recently is that I just want to have sex, now I really don't care who it is I just want to get laid , and this scares me because I feel that I may not contain myself. The only reason I stoped thinking about sex on the 1st place was b/c I wanted a relationship now that I suffered some disappointing experiences I just want sex and now that I am heading of to college I am afraid of letting my whoreniness get the better of me. I mean I bet if I didn't have sex when I was young I wouldn't have this intense desire, what should I do? Is it dangerous to feel like this? Any advice?
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Craving is the source of all avoidable suffering. Practice restraint. If sex were really all that great then you'd only have to do it once. Contemplate the different painful & unclean things that the body is composed of like: muscle, skin, saliva, teeth, finger nails, sweat, brain, etc. This will help you to decrease your lust. Also avoid looking at things that arouse lust in you, this will also greatly help.
 
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