Cappuccino
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- Jul 6, 2008
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It's very opposite in my case. Since I put my faith on Christ, I started feeling guilty on pretty much everything. For example, I was surfing on the internet and some kinda porn advertisement popped up. I could not help myself from feeling so guilty about it.
I hate asking for forgiveness on every single thing that I used to think was my privilege to enjoy, like cursing for fun(not to harm other people's feelings,) watching porns, being naturally jealous over someone, etc. Then, I fear God and I'm afraid of consequences of not asking for forgiveness. He terribly disciplined me in the past, and I do not want to experience it ever again.
I feel like the religion has totally taken over my freedom. Too many restrictions, obligations... The religion has put me into the battle against what they call "the sin." I only believed in "crimes" before religion, but now I have to feel guilty and ask forgiveness for something that does not harm others.
So how can I achieve peace when the religion puts me into this exhausting and everlasting battle against the sins? I know you are going to tell me to kneel down and ask the holy spirit for guidance. If it worked, I wouldn't be asking this question.
You might say I do not have enough faith or I do not pray in a correct manner. But again, people who are considered "faithful" are still in their battles against those sins throughout their lives. So am I damned to be fighting these sins all my life till the day of my death? Am I damned to feel so anxious about every small thing I do for the rest of my life?
I hate asking for forgiveness on every single thing that I used to think was my privilege to enjoy, like cursing for fun(not to harm other people's feelings,) watching porns, being naturally jealous over someone, etc. Then, I fear God and I'm afraid of consequences of not asking for forgiveness. He terribly disciplined me in the past, and I do not want to experience it ever again.
I feel like the religion has totally taken over my freedom. Too many restrictions, obligations... The religion has put me into the battle against what they call "the sin." I only believed in "crimes" before religion, but now I have to feel guilty and ask forgiveness for something that does not harm others.
So how can I achieve peace when the religion puts me into this exhausting and everlasting battle against the sins? I know you are going to tell me to kneel down and ask the holy spirit for guidance. If it worked, I wouldn't be asking this question.
You might say I do not have enough faith or I do not pray in a correct manner. But again, people who are considered "faithful" are still in their battles against those sins throughout their lives. So am I damned to be fighting these sins all my life till the day of my death? Am I damned to feel so anxious about every small thing I do for the rest of my life?