ThisCharmingman
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- Jun 10, 2012
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I met a guy about six months ago; and we hit it off a bit, really liked each other an all. Now we're both bipolar and openly gay, so we were in the same boat in a lot of ways. Eventually he said he only wanted mates, which is fair, and I said okay, even tho I'd fallen for him pretty bad. I worked out the kinda guy he was pretty quickly, largely because I used to be like him; til one of my mates told me to get a grip; it's like treating ppl like commodities; hard to explain lol. I thought all he needed was a bit of patience; it is really hard being bipolar.
Anyway, he did loads of bad stuff, I won't say it all, there's too much haha. But at one point after gettin robbed, he lost it; and basically ended up in a sauna ******* someone else; and I could hear it, so I lost it, and told him i loved him. He then kinda nodded and ****** someone else. So I really lost it lol. After tht we both kinda dragged each other through each others emotional dirt. Now I still cared abt him; so I guess I exacerbated it sometimes, but tht happens I think wen u fall for someone. Sometimes it seemed like it was reciprocated; it seemed a bit like he liked me, didn't want to lose me, but tht he just couldn't handle it.
Anyway, I lost my temper once and for all wen he just left again at one point. A few days after, I text him explaining what had been happening; that this constant keeping me in the dark, the lies and the drama, it all had effect- and tht I wasn't entirely in the wrong; and tht I was in the same boat so I didn't know why he kept doing it. He relied jst saying "it's ok'. So i just left it a week. I text again saying I wasn't apologising but that maybe it was different viewing it all from the outside. I didn't get an answer; so I left it.
I went to town last week with some mates, and I happened to run to him with pretty much the only mate he goes out with. He spent some of the night just staring at me; it seemed a bit like jealousy. His mate likes me pretty bad lol, and kept trying to get us to talk by getting us near each other, but I didn;t want to go swannying up like a lapdog again. He knew where I was lol. Since then haven't had a text, but I really miss him, and I really duno wht to do, but I really don;t want to capitulate. I'm not wrong, at least nt entirely. I jst can't stop thinking about the looks lol. I dno what might happen.
What should i do???
Anyway, he did loads of bad stuff, I won't say it all, there's too much haha. But at one point after gettin robbed, he lost it; and basically ended up in a sauna ******* someone else; and I could hear it, so I lost it, and told him i loved him. He then kinda nodded and ****** someone else. So I really lost it lol. After tht we both kinda dragged each other through each others emotional dirt. Now I still cared abt him; so I guess I exacerbated it sometimes, but tht happens I think wen u fall for someone. Sometimes it seemed like it was reciprocated; it seemed a bit like he liked me, didn't want to lose me, but tht he just couldn't handle it.
Anyway, I lost my temper once and for all wen he just left again at one point. A few days after, I text him explaining what had been happening; that this constant keeping me in the dark, the lies and the drama, it all had effect- and tht I wasn't entirely in the wrong; and tht I was in the same boat so I didn't know why he kept doing it. He relied jst saying "it's ok'. So i just left it a week. I text again saying I wasn't apologising but that maybe it was different viewing it all from the outside. I didn't get an answer; so I left it.
I went to town last week with some mates, and I happened to run to him with pretty much the only mate he goes out with. He spent some of the night just staring at me; it seemed a bit like jealousy. His mate likes me pretty bad lol, and kept trying to get us to talk by getting us near each other, but I didn;t want to go swannying up like a lapdog again. He knew where I was lol. Since then haven't had a text, but I really miss him, and I really duno wht to do, but I really don;t want to capitulate. I'm not wrong, at least nt entirely. I jst can't stop thinking about the looks lol. I dno what might happen.
What should i do???