Well, this easter weekend I'm going to see my Father's side of the family. I've visited him only twice in the past 3 years after not seeing him for almost my whole life. My Aunt is hosting the family gathering. Her and I have a fairly good relationship same with me and my father's mom. All my cousins and my Uncle and his girlfriend (with her two little kids) will be there. Including 5 siblings of mine (one is a step-brother. He's 12.) I've never really met any of these siblings, only when I was really young and can't remember. Although I have stayed with my step-brother and youngest brother who is turning 3 this year. Everyone is this family (Not counting my Uncle's girlfriends, her kids, my step-brother, my 3 year old brother, and my two youngest cousins who are under 10 years old) are into drugs and alcohol or have had a bad past with that stuff. I'm the only one who hasn't. I've drank before, but I hardly do it. My two older siblings and my cousin who is the same age as me (15) are heavily into pot. I have no problem with pot. I have friends who do it, it just doesn't interest me. Even my 11 year old sister has tried it a few times and has been drunk! I don't care that they do this stuff (other than my 11 year old sister.) I just feel like I don't fit in with this family. My mum isn't going to be there and I feel awkward around my Father. He was never there for me and was the typical dead-beat dad who is, just recently, trying to clear his conscious. Not going to this "get-together" isn't an option =/. I'm just kind of nervous about it all. I've never really met these people and i'm the odd-ball of this family. What should I do? I know I'll end up hanging with my older cousin and my two older siblings. I'm not going to smoke pot with them if asked. I'd be too scared. Idk. Should I try hanging out with them normally or just kind of fade into the background till I can leave. I'm really not good in social places and like I said, I feel awkward around this side of my family.