Miserable and dont know what to do?

[mchadwick1986]

I am 23...have a 2 and a 6 year old. Had a terrible childhood. My mom was a constant drunk. Beat us, ran off, called us names...everything in the book. I got pregnant at 16, gave birth at 17. Didn't stay with the father, he was a hitter. Had a good relationship and got engaged had my son, had a wonderful job as an accounting tech, had a beautiful house. Well my daughters father raped me in our home with my children there. My daughter heard everything and was asking if everything was ok (she was in the bathtub). He got 10 years probation and a registered sex offender. I worked with him though and my work would not fire him because he was not convicted yet so I quit. My fiance would not get a job to help with bills and got violent as well. Through me into the computer desk and into my bed post and said (I'll do the same thing brandon did to you!). I kicked him out...but lost my house as well and had no choice but to move me and my kids in back home. But it is nothing but miserable. My daughter was just diagnosed with Tourettes and my mom blames me. She says I am a terrible mom because I had to move, says I like being raped. I am 5'4" and 110lbs...far from fat...but tells me I am nasty cause I have stretch marks. Calls my daughter crazy to her face. Takes pills, gets drunk, and smokes weed. She hurts me so bad. Anytime I tried to talk to her, she tells me to cut my wrist, take some pills and stop whining. She kills me. Right now...I don't have much of a choice but to live here...my dad doesn't take up for me...just goes to his room. I am with my children every day. My children are wonderful. I do everything I possibly can for them. I have never drank while I have them, I don't do drugs, I dont go out...every dime I have goes on them. Its so hard to find a way out and get on my feet with no vehicle. There is no public transportation where I live either. I feel so worthless...I have nothing left.