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Lonely in Michigan
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Okay, I think I'm just weird. My mother suffered from depression and for a while I thought I had it too, but never went to the doctor. Here's an example of my life...
Cheated on bf for the first time. Felt unstoppable and while the thought crossed my mind of how bad this would be for my bf and I, I did it anyway. Afterward I spent the next week holding myself back from taking the power cord of my alarm clock and whipping myself until I bruised. I cried and cried for weeks, even as my dad practically announced the event to him. He was upset but decided we could try again.
Second time, different guy, the fact that I had a bf didn't deter me. It was just a rush for me. I guess I'm still kind of in mania from that one as my bf breaks up with me and I sit there in silence, sad but without getting very upset. I got a little angry at the whole situation for about a half hour and I think I've moved on... a 6 month relationship done and little to no heartbreak less than 12 hours later.
Cheated on bf for the first time. Felt unstoppable and while the thought crossed my mind of how bad this would be for my bf and I, I did it anyway. Afterward I spent the next week holding myself back from taking the power cord of my alarm clock and whipping myself until I bruised. I cried and cried for weeks, even as my dad practically announced the event to him. He was upset but decided we could try again.
Second time, different guy, the fact that I had a bf didn't deter me. It was just a rush for me. I guess I'm still kind of in mania from that one as my bf breaks up with me and I sit there in silence, sad but without getting very upset. I got a little angry at the whole situation for about a half hour and I think I've moved on... a 6 month relationship done and little to no heartbreak less than 12 hours later.