NikkiLevani
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my mom says stuff like if she evr found out her kids were doing drugs she would turn them into the police (i maybe i hav done drugs, but she doesnt know). She always is controlling my life and wont even let me go to the mall alone or hang out with boys. Im frickn 14 and its pissing me off and i started to get into trouble at school and she acts like im the worst ignorant trouble maker when all i did waz be late to class a few times, and got in trouble for talking and throwing a paper airplane and acting up. the reason im so pissed is because my mom for some reason kept years worth of letters in our attic from like her middle school years to collage and i got to reading them. from them i learned she wx like a major sl*t who dated my dad when she waz in 8th grade and he wz a freshman in college. i read on one of her reports card that she got in trouble for running on the desks in school and laughing wen the class was told to be silent as punishment. so im pissed off about how mad she got at me for my detentions when in comparison i wz the better behaved child. i also found from her letters to friends that when she waz my age she wz smoking ciggarettes and weed (prolly worse but it wz kinda hard to verify), getting drunk all night and having sex. this pisses me off because she told me sum bullsh** story about how there wz sum girl who would offer her beer and she "just said no". I also learned from her report cards she wz like a straight c student, and it makes me mad that she gats on my case about my grades cause they r alot better than hers were. seriously, i hate her for being such a hypocrit a suffocating me with rules cause even though i may not be a perfect kid (i hav ADHD btw) i know i would nevr be as stupid as she wz. so whenever she is on my case i really wanna be like "i know what u did" but im not sure i want her to know I know, she'd prolly deny it. I dont really think my mom knows how to be a mom cause her mom wz bipolar and schizophrenic and her parents were divorced. in one letter i even read my mom considered suicide cause things were so bad. I can understand she wouldnt want the same for me but she really needs to chill. i want to let her know im aware of what a f**kin hypocrit she is but i feel uneasy about it cause we're not realy close so i feel weird about bringing up something personal about her. plz help idk wat to do