im 15 and I don't do anything with my life. the only thing I love is video games but they still make me feel empty. I also love music but its not like it keeps me going. I have plenty of "school friends" that I don't like and dont REALLY know me. I have one guy friend that's pretty much my only friend but he gets annoying and sometimes pressures me to experiment even though I'm a lesbian. my family is really annoying...my moms a complete psycho bitch and my dad just never talks to me. the only person I could say I love is my sister. she's at college this year and it's all so much more different than last year when she just drove to class instead of having a dorm. I'm so lost without her to chat with and get coffee and just do our normal routine. I think I'm mostly thrown off balance because I hate change. it's a new school year, and a completely new lifestyle pretty much without my sister. she visits occasionally and I just want her to stay but obviously she can't. I'm not necessarily suicidal but I just dont enjoy life at all and I hate everything and I sleep just to pass the tim and hope it's the weekend and my sister visits or something. i don't even know what to do with myself anymore..what should I do?