Let me lay out the situation. I was with my exboyfriend (billy) for a year and a half.....I cheated on him with my best friend, which I strongly regret. I always despised people who cheated and to this day hate myself for it. Needless to say we broke up and I went out with my best friend (tony).
Me and tony went out for 2 years. But during those 2 years I always questioned myself if i made the right decision, and always secretly kind of wanted to be with my ex. I did fall in love with tony, but I feel like I forced myself to, to justify the fact that I cheated on my ex. I guess I wanted it to be worth it, so I forced it to be.
Tony broke up with me in March, i was completely upset and devastated. But I felt the need to see billy again to see if something was still there. I met him for dinner and I didnt really feel anything, but again I felt like it was too soon because my heart was broken.
Billy has tried so hard to get me back, after the fact that I cheated on him. I know he truly and genuinely loved me more than anything in the world. I recently had dreams like 3 nights in a row about being back with Billy and saying specifcally to him "I'm so glad I gave us another change, I really feel in my heart that this is right." And ever since then i've been wanting to see him and felt happy when i thought of being with him again. Then coincidentally after that, I heard taylor swift's new song "back to december" which is essentially about how she did her boyfriend wrong, and he loved her, and she left him and now she wants to go back and make it all right again. --- I cheated in december.
All these signs are driving me nuts.
Things i'm unsure of are:
1. I was able to cheat on him after going out with him for a year and a half with someone else. With tony, I never looked at another guy or wanted to ever be with another guy but him.
2. He moved 2 hours away, even if we did try again, he lives so far now and it would be difficult.
3. What if theres someone else out there that I havent met yet?
I don't know.....just wanted to see what people's thoughts were
thanks for your help.
Me and tony went out for 2 years. But during those 2 years I always questioned myself if i made the right decision, and always secretly kind of wanted to be with my ex. I did fall in love with tony, but I feel like I forced myself to, to justify the fact that I cheated on my ex. I guess I wanted it to be worth it, so I forced it to be.
Tony broke up with me in March, i was completely upset and devastated. But I felt the need to see billy again to see if something was still there. I met him for dinner and I didnt really feel anything, but again I felt like it was too soon because my heart was broken.
Billy has tried so hard to get me back, after the fact that I cheated on him. I know he truly and genuinely loved me more than anything in the world. I recently had dreams like 3 nights in a row about being back with Billy and saying specifcally to him "I'm so glad I gave us another change, I really feel in my heart that this is right." And ever since then i've been wanting to see him and felt happy when i thought of being with him again. Then coincidentally after that, I heard taylor swift's new song "back to december" which is essentially about how she did her boyfriend wrong, and he loved her, and she left him and now she wants to go back and make it all right again. --- I cheated in december.
All these signs are driving me nuts.
Things i'm unsure of are:
1. I was able to cheat on him after going out with him for a year and a half with someone else. With tony, I never looked at another guy or wanted to ever be with another guy but him.
2. He moved 2 hours away, even if we did try again, he lives so far now and it would be difficult.
3. What if theres someone else out there that I havent met yet?
I don't know.....just wanted to see what people's thoughts were
thanks for your help.