God is God. He is eternity, and He is the one that embodies that eternity. The only thing God wishes for people is to celebrate life and those around us. If you follow the ten commandments and avoid the seven deadly sins, you are still in line for judgment, as is anyone that believes ultimately, in God. God selects your path and he lights it along the way. If he wanted it to be so that you may be uncertain and looking for answers the rest of your human life, then just go with the flow and live mellow. Live for today, not tomorrow, and not for the future. Celebrate life, not victories that you MAY or MAY NOT be part of. Be happy that you have been handed a fate, that at least for right now, includes food in your stomach and a warm bed to sleep in every night. Being pagan is not a sin, being atheist and agnostic is. I myself, in fact, am pagan and have no problems with my life on a day to day basis. No hate mail please.