Talk about religion! my opinion ...?

[Rastafarian]

Ok so. Im not the most experienced person ever because Im only 16. Sometimes I think I'm an Atheist. I need help, I would like you guys (that know more then I do) to help me believe in something or someone. I dont believe in God, because in my opinion, he hasn't done anything for me. At least, not at the moment. These times are hard and they're getting even harder. Im not perfect. I have sinned. I've also apologized. and I still dont get any anwers. I dont believe in the "devil" . Im not one of those retarted emo kids. I dont listen to metal. I dont believe in the "ILLUMINATI" or any of that sh** ok. Just to make it clear! ..I simply dont believe in God, because Im the type of person that likes proof. if you say God does exist ...ok prove it to me! ......exatcly. Im just very realistic. My parents are Catholic. We're not the most religious family. we dont go to church every weekend. no . I just ...dont know what to believe anymore. there's a lot of opinions. for example, if God does exist, and he loves us. then why are people dying? why do babies die because they have no food, or money, or clothes and their families are poor? Howcome my parents have to break their backs working to give me everything I need in order to survive, while there's other people out there that are killing others and dealing drugs like COCAINE across the border or anywhere else ....and are millionares with big houses and dont have to worry about anything ?! There's people in this world that have a shi*t load of money and everything was handed to them since the beginning ..that dont appreciate life or at least dont enjoy it. Ok ...another example. (I dont know if you guys know him) CRISTIANO RONALDO ... (pro soccer player) why is he gettting paid millions of dollars everyday to play soccer while a doctor that's saving someone's life gets paid half of that? ..it makes no sense. It's bullsh.. It's unfair. This world is cruel. So what am I suppouse to believe? ...I need answers

- PLEASE, honest and smart answers. & here's my email if you really care about this & want to talk to me, [email protected]