my brother was 17. he never got to be 18. he never lived a normal life. our parent were selfish people who only thought about themselves. our father left 12 years ago. our mom had an emotional break down and became an alcoholic. my brother, the older of six took care of all us at the age of 6. he was our parents and he did everything he could for me and our four younger siblings. he put us first before himself. everything that he did was for us. he didn't really live his life.
my father came back this last christmas and took full custody of me and my four younger siblings. we move to go live with him, our step mom and our three half siblings in a different state. my brother stayed behind to help our mom with her drinking problem. he was starting to finally live his life as he was planning on going to his first choice college. the very same day that he asked the girl that he has been in love with to be his girlfriend, he was killed in a car accident.
it's haven't even been a week since his death did our family start to fall apart. he was what kept us together. i'm the oldest know and i'm scared. i don't know how to protect the others and i can't be a good other brother like Will was. my younger sister emma is always mad. my younger brother kevin shut himself off from everyone else. he refuse to talk to anyone. my sister susan is trying to pretend as if everything is normal, as if everything is okay. my youngest sister is quiet unless she is wrapped in Will's jacket crying herself to sleep at night or she wake up screaming for Will in the middle of the night. My three half siblings think that it is their fault for everything, from the divorce of my parents to Will being where he was to get into the car accident. my step mom is just trying to hard. my dad is just silent. my mom is trying to be strong and she only cry when she thinks we aren't around. my brother's girlfriend has been trying to keep herself together but i can see how heart broken she is.
i know it is wrong for me to say this but i'm waiting for to break and start drinking again. i'm waiting for my dad to walk out because it is just to hard for him to deal with it. i'm waiting for my step mom to show us that she isn't as nice as she keep trying to be (even though all she has ever shown us is kindness). everything has already gone to hell. i'm scared. i keep feeling as if nothing is ever going to okay. how do we keep it together?
my father came back this last christmas and took full custody of me and my four younger siblings. we move to go live with him, our step mom and our three half siblings in a different state. my brother stayed behind to help our mom with her drinking problem. he was starting to finally live his life as he was planning on going to his first choice college. the very same day that he asked the girl that he has been in love with to be his girlfriend, he was killed in a car accident.
it's haven't even been a week since his death did our family start to fall apart. he was what kept us together. i'm the oldest know and i'm scared. i don't know how to protect the others and i can't be a good other brother like Will was. my younger sister emma is always mad. my younger brother kevin shut himself off from everyone else. he refuse to talk to anyone. my sister susan is trying to pretend as if everything is normal, as if everything is okay. my youngest sister is quiet unless she is wrapped in Will's jacket crying herself to sleep at night or she wake up screaming for Will in the middle of the night. My three half siblings think that it is their fault for everything, from the divorce of my parents to Will being where he was to get into the car accident. my step mom is just trying to hard. my dad is just silent. my mom is trying to be strong and she only cry when she thinks we aren't around. my brother's girlfriend has been trying to keep herself together but i can see how heart broken she is.
i know it is wrong for me to say this but i'm waiting for to break and start drinking again. i'm waiting for my dad to walk out because it is just to hard for him to deal with it. i'm waiting for my step mom to show us that she isn't as nice as she keep trying to be (even though all she has ever shown us is kindness). everything has already gone to hell. i'm scared. i keep feeling as if nothing is ever going to okay. how do we keep it together?