First off, I'm not looking for the "You're to young!"s and the "This is ridiculous."s. I'm not in it for the sex. That's the last thing in mind.
Since I was little, I wanted to have a baby. I sincerely believe I was made to be a mother. There's nothing in this world I want more than a baby boy. I may be 15, but I know what I need to. I know that it takes a shit load of money to raise a baby, to even have a baby. I know that it would grow up without a father, possibly and that if I didn't raise it right, it could have mental problems because of that. I know that I won't be able to go through that drinking and drugs and partying stage, but that's not my personality anyways. I know that it would exceptionally hard for me because my mother was killed 2 years ago and I wouldn't have anyone to go to for certain things. I do online school, and my father is 100% supportive of whatever I do, I've talked to him about it. I'm not saying that I'm going to go off and have a kid with a random person, but I'm at the point where if someone asked me for sex, I'd agree, just to have that possibility to have a child. I know that sounds so whore-y and I don't like that I think about it that way, but I'm so hell-bent on having a kid. I don't know what to do. For now, I've been writing in a notebook to the future baby, but it doesn't seem to be helping. While other kids where picking out careers and classes, I was picking out baby names. I've read a lot of things about teenage pregnancies, and people tend to say that teens can't give the babies a good life, a proper upbringing, but to me that's bull. As long as you have a roof to live under, decent food and a caring environment, you don't need anything else. A kid needs a father, I understand, and someday I could fill that void whenever I get married. I don't know, I just want a kid so bad.
I guess I just needed to vent..sorry.
Since I was little, I wanted to have a baby. I sincerely believe I was made to be a mother. There's nothing in this world I want more than a baby boy. I may be 15, but I know what I need to. I know that it takes a shit load of money to raise a baby, to even have a baby. I know that it would grow up without a father, possibly and that if I didn't raise it right, it could have mental problems because of that. I know that I won't be able to go through that drinking and drugs and partying stage, but that's not my personality anyways. I know that it would exceptionally hard for me because my mother was killed 2 years ago and I wouldn't have anyone to go to for certain things. I do online school, and my father is 100% supportive of whatever I do, I've talked to him about it. I'm not saying that I'm going to go off and have a kid with a random person, but I'm at the point where if someone asked me for sex, I'd agree, just to have that possibility to have a child. I know that sounds so whore-y and I don't like that I think about it that way, but I'm so hell-bent on having a kid. I don't know what to do. For now, I've been writing in a notebook to the future baby, but it doesn't seem to be helping. While other kids where picking out careers and classes, I was picking out baby names. I've read a lot of things about teenage pregnancies, and people tend to say that teens can't give the babies a good life, a proper upbringing, but to me that's bull. As long as you have a roof to live under, decent food and a caring environment, you don't need anything else. A kid needs a father, I understand, and someday I could fill that void whenever I get married. I don't know, I just want a kid so bad.
I guess I just needed to vent..sorry.