===Previous Posting===
I've been going out with my current boyfriend since August 18, 2009. (All this is the complete faithful truth)
We weren't actual friends, so we kind of quickly rushed in being in a relationship.
I didn't want to go with him, but I tried to force myself to love him or I would thought I would love him later on.
We got our first apartment on Nov. 1, 2009, cause my mom rushing me out of the house so we couldn't be like typical boyfriends visiting one another.
Our problems started because I would say I was being a "jerk" I wanted space and I disliked the roommate that lived with us. I wouldn't pay him much attention and he would talk behind my back with his friends and the roommate. He would also take sides with his roommate. As time goes by, Problems started to get worst, arguements left to right. I went on craigslist.com to look at the m4m hook up page but I wasn't looking for someone I just wanted to browse cause of my curiousity. After my boy found out (back in Dec. 2009) he was heart broken, and my roommate was hitting on him. so I kicked my roommate out for bringing drugs into our apartment and my bf took his side saying I was being a *butt* but there were other reasons, his friends will talk about my HIV in a negative manner and he wouldn't defend me.
Skipping a few months, problems become worst I started to break things and punch holes in the wall cause I was just full of anger. I would hit him to, which I regert because, he will be talking to other guys. I one night he woke me up in the middle of the night, he came up with a hickie from another guy that gave me that. telling me he doesn't want to be with me. He wanted to try something else, we were broke up for a week and we got back together.
a month ago I left him cause I was sick and tired of the problems and becoming an animal when I would be mad. He had sexual interccourse with another man, but failed to tell me but I knew something was wrong. I had to tell him I was opening about open relationships like he wanted, and he was telling me that he wants to see another guy to have sex with me while he watches. That's when he tld me that he slept with another man. That's weeks after he slept with that other guy.
Now. He's been talking to this guy, he started to have feelings for him. One day he was going to this aunts house (so he said) for a family picnic, I told him bring me some food, he didn't say anything and just left. When I called him from a different number he answered and I asked where are you and he said somewhere. Until I heared a guy in the background and told me he was with a guy. We were still together!
We been broken up for 4 days and got back tonight, and it doesn't seems right. i don't see him like a boyfriend anymore. I feel bad cause the other guy was attached to him. My bf told him we were back together...
My question (finally) is, is it worth it continuing? This relationship, when we are gonna end up fighting and him doing the same process again because he gets' mad at me and starts talking to other guy. I've been 100% faithful, I'm not kidding.
Basically he doesn't have respect for me since he calls me names and stuff and does what he does. My sister said he is just obessed with you and clinging to you and other guys to see what works out.
also, we live together and I don't have no where to go.. so yea
=====After Effects===
I let him go, he was so happy with the other guy. He told me how much he had feelings for him far greater than me
I wasn't going to be selfish, I talked to the other guy to give my ex another try.. But why do I feel so hurt inside?? Was it a good thing what I did?? I feel so lost :/ I'm crying so bad
Please help me :/ I'm sooo sad and depressedow+much+he+had+feelings+for+him+far+greater+than+me%0A%0D%0Aalso%2C+we+live+together+and+I+don%27t+have+
I've been going out with my current boyfriend since August 18, 2009. (All this is the complete faithful truth)
We weren't actual friends, so we kind of quickly rushed in being in a relationship.
I didn't want to go with him, but I tried to force myself to love him or I would thought I would love him later on.
We got our first apartment on Nov. 1, 2009, cause my mom rushing me out of the house so we couldn't be like typical boyfriends visiting one another.
Our problems started because I would say I was being a "jerk" I wanted space and I disliked the roommate that lived with us. I wouldn't pay him much attention and he would talk behind my back with his friends and the roommate. He would also take sides with his roommate. As time goes by, Problems started to get worst, arguements left to right. I went on craigslist.com to look at the m4m hook up page but I wasn't looking for someone I just wanted to browse cause of my curiousity. After my boy found out (back in Dec. 2009) he was heart broken, and my roommate was hitting on him. so I kicked my roommate out for bringing drugs into our apartment and my bf took his side saying I was being a *butt* but there were other reasons, his friends will talk about my HIV in a negative manner and he wouldn't defend me.
Skipping a few months, problems become worst I started to break things and punch holes in the wall cause I was just full of anger. I would hit him to, which I regert because, he will be talking to other guys. I one night he woke me up in the middle of the night, he came up with a hickie from another guy that gave me that. telling me he doesn't want to be with me. He wanted to try something else, we were broke up for a week and we got back together.
a month ago I left him cause I was sick and tired of the problems and becoming an animal when I would be mad. He had sexual interccourse with another man, but failed to tell me but I knew something was wrong. I had to tell him I was opening about open relationships like he wanted, and he was telling me that he wants to see another guy to have sex with me while he watches. That's when he tld me that he slept with another man. That's weeks after he slept with that other guy.
Now. He's been talking to this guy, he started to have feelings for him. One day he was going to this aunts house (so he said) for a family picnic, I told him bring me some food, he didn't say anything and just left. When I called him from a different number he answered and I asked where are you and he said somewhere. Until I heared a guy in the background and told me he was with a guy. We were still together!
We been broken up for 4 days and got back tonight, and it doesn't seems right. i don't see him like a boyfriend anymore. I feel bad cause the other guy was attached to him. My bf told him we were back together...
My question (finally) is, is it worth it continuing? This relationship, when we are gonna end up fighting and him doing the same process again because he gets' mad at me and starts talking to other guy. I've been 100% faithful, I'm not kidding.
Basically he doesn't have respect for me since he calls me names and stuff and does what he does. My sister said he is just obessed with you and clinging to you and other guys to see what works out.
also, we live together and I don't have no where to go.. so yea
=====After Effects===
I let him go, he was so happy with the other guy. He told me how much he had feelings for him far greater than me
I wasn't going to be selfish, I talked to the other guy to give my ex another try.. But why do I feel so hurt inside?? Was it a good thing what I did?? I feel so lost :/ I'm crying so bad
Please help me :/ I'm sooo sad and depressedow+much+he+had+feelings+for+him+far+greater+than+me%0A%0D%0Aalso%2C+we+live+together+and+I+don%27t+have+