WilliamThomas
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spinning. I can't actually sleep? Was this male sexual abuse?
Hi! I am nearly a 19 year old guy and my head is spinning. I can't actually sleep most nights.When I was younger I can't remember the exact age because I keep on remembering more and more. The first time I can remember is when I was around 10/11 and it ended when I was around 14 and a half. There was a man in my life that I think may have sexually abused me. He was 10years older than me and I just thought he was nicer than me.I think I was abused because he used touch my penis and **** me and he made me do the same to him. He used also just play with my body penis a lot and he used spank me if I was bold and he often massaged me. During the early years I took no notice of this and just though he was having fun with me. I know that sounds stupid. This guy really isolated me from my friends and I lost contact with some of them. He say that He was my friend and why used I talk to other people. When I was around 14 I tried to push him away from me and he tried to smother me. He then said that nobody would believe me and he would say that I was making it all up. I kind of forgot about it then and I blanked out everything that happened to me. I don't think he meant to do it to me and he still sends me presents. I have a friend who started to say that I got raped by a man and that was why I was so bent. It just made me freeze and get really sad. It seems like a joke to him and he thinks it's kind of funny and he is always making rise cracks at me about what happened to me. He holds it over me and he treat ens to tell tell people the truth and he is recking my head. This is my secret and not his
I began to remember these things a few months ago and I knew there was something wrong f or years. I am also attracted to guys and I blame this for what happened to me now!
Was this sexually abuse?
Is there any where good for men to go?
Did it make me gay?
What should I do about my fiend?
ps I don't want to go to the police!
Hi! I am nearly a 19 year old guy and my head is spinning. I can't actually sleep most nights.When I was younger I can't remember the exact age because I keep on remembering more and more. The first time I can remember is when I was around 10/11 and it ended when I was around 14 and a half. There was a man in my life that I think may have sexually abused me. He was 10years older than me and I just thought he was nicer than me.I think I was abused because he used touch my penis and **** me and he made me do the same to him. He used also just play with my body penis a lot and he used spank me if I was bold and he often massaged me. During the early years I took no notice of this and just though he was having fun with me. I know that sounds stupid. This guy really isolated me from my friends and I lost contact with some of them. He say that He was my friend and why used I talk to other people. When I was around 14 I tried to push him away from me and he tried to smother me. He then said that nobody would believe me and he would say that I was making it all up. I kind of forgot about it then and I blanked out everything that happened to me. I don't think he meant to do it to me and he still sends me presents. I have a friend who started to say that I got raped by a man and that was why I was so bent. It just made me freeze and get really sad. It seems like a joke to him and he thinks it's kind of funny and he is always making rise cracks at me about what happened to me. He holds it over me and he treat ens to tell tell people the truth and he is recking my head. This is my secret and not his
I began to remember these things a few months ago and I knew there was something wrong f or years. I am also attracted to guys and I blame this for what happened to me now!
Was this sexually abuse?
Is there any where good for men to go?
Did it make me gay?
What should I do about my fiend?
ps I don't want to go to the police!